Chapter 357: Chapter 357: Are You Really an Illegitimate Child?
"I won’t let go!" Li Buyan’s strong hands held her even tighter. "Why are you so nervous? Even if I catch a cold, it’s me who catches it. I haven’t said a word even though I’m lying on the floor."
"You are you, I am me. I’m not as strong as you physically, okay?" Li Buyan squirmed, her small hand pressing against his abs, trying to get up again.
Li Xingle flipped over and pinned her down. "Move again, and I will kiss you!"
Li Buyan’s small body shrank, "No way! I won’t move! But what are we doing just lying here like this?"
"Talk to me..." Li Xingle turned back over.
Li Buyan leaned against his chest, listening to his heartbeat, feeling her own heartbeat speed up.
Li Xingle asked her to talk to him, but he did not say a word, only his shallow breaths could be heard, falling onto her hair and making her scalp itch.
"Are you really an illegitimate child?" She still hadn’t processed what he had just said.
"You don’t believe it?"
"I..." She didn’t know what to say, "From the first time I saw you, I didn’t think so!"
He was so cheerful, how could he seem like an illegitimate child who had been hurt?
"So, what do you think an illegitimate child should be like? Living in a place without daylight, waiting for someone else’s salvation?"
"I..."
"Actually, I used to be like that." Li Xingle sighed deeply.
Li Buyan’s cheek moved with his sigh, and her heart was beating faster and faster.
"What about your mother?"
"Dead."
"I’m sorry..." Li Buyan covered her small mouth, she didn’t know.
"No need to apologize, she left when I was five." Li Xingle’s tone was relaxed, as if he was talking about something most ordinary.
A child born after a one-night stand, a father who didn’t love him, and a mother who left.
She found it really hard to imagine how he had survived after his father kicked him out of the house.
"My life was saved by Ye Gushen. When I was nine, in an underground boxing ring. Even the money I used to start my business, the initial connections, all came from Ye Gushen. Without him, there would be no me now. So, you know, no matter how Little Shen Shen treats me, we’ve shared life and death together, closer than real brothers!" Li Xingle didn’t know why he was saying all this.
Some things he had buried deep in his heart, never told anyone.
"Little Li, do you think I should hate the man who gave me life, yet doesn’t want me?"
Maybe it was the alcohol talking, but Li Xingle’s topics were changing quickly, and Li Buyan hadn’t caught up yet.
"I don’t know. After all, I’m not you, I don’t know your situation, or what you think." Li Buyan’s throat felt a painful lump, and her nose turned red.
She had always been cherished by her parents, couldn’t understand his situation, and how he had managed to survive such tragedy.
If it were her, she might not have made it.
"Do you need me to tell you how I feel?" Li Xingle’s lips tightened, suddenly pressing her back onto the cold, hard floor.
The rain outside was still falling softly.
Li Buyan’s breathing sped up, their cheeks were so close, she could feel the alcohol on his breath.
Her throat moved, her small hands clenched into fists, the weight on her body making it nearly impossible to breathe.
"Can you get up to talk? Don’t press on me?" Li Buyan whispered.
"If I get up, I might not be able to continue..." Li Xingle cupped her small face with one hand, slowly applying pressure.