Chapter 124: It’s Love

Chapter 124: 124: It’s Love


Lysander paused.


His eyes fell on the young man now as he stared at him.


His eyes were on the guard for a while now. And the guard became uncomfortable.


The guard looked around "Is anything wrong...? Your highness.." he said.


Lysander still stared at him for a while. He also had questions and something he needed to clear.


He wanted to check if he actually liked men now. Since it didn’t work with the ladies.


And so he walked up to this male guard and held the young man’s cheeks in his palms.


The young man stiffened, eyes widened as he glared at Lysander "Your...your.. your Highness. Did.. did.. did I .. offend you in any...way?" He panicked.


Lysander stared at him without saying anything. His eyes on his trembling and shocked expression as Lysander leaned in.


He wanted to go in for a kiss. A full kiss. With his eyes open. He wanted to see how it felt to him doing it with another guy. To confirm if he really liked men instead.


As he leaned closer, the guard panicked as he kept moving his head backwards. "What.. what’s this.. your Highness.." he muttered.


But as Lysander was almost close to his face, he stopped. He didn’t see Eden’s face. But he also wasn’t feeling it at all.


He instantly pulled backwards. "No. I don’t like men.." he muttered as he took off, rushing into his chamber.


The guard stood out there for a while. His face pale with shock and panic.


*******


Even when he was in his chamber, Lysander was still bothered by the thought.


The thought of Eden still ran through his head as he paced up and down around the room. And then he decided to get an answer.


He called for a Royal adviser. And soon, one was standing in front of him in his room.


Lysander sat on the bed.


"How may I help you, Your Highness?" The Male Royal Adviser asked, standing. His head down.


Lysander hesitated "I have a question. And you better answer it with all honesty. I’m serious.." He shuttered.


"I promise I will answer to the best of my knowledge your Highness" He assured.


Lysander hesitated, constructing his thoughts as he began "Well.. how do you describe this feeling.."


Lysander started "Always thinking about someone. Even when they’re around and when they’re not around. When they’re not around, you feel worried and want to see them. And then when you’re around them... You feel tensed up and all..."


He continued "You flinch at the thought of them or when they get closer. Your heart flutters and all. And I feel odd.. and I even think about them in sleep.."


Lysander stared at the royal adviser "So what’s this feeling? How do you explain it?"


He stared curiously at the Royal adviser. Praying he’d give him something contrary to what he thought it was.


"It’s an easy feeling to describe your Highness. It simply means that you love this person" He said directly with the very word "love"


Lysander blinked. His face pale with shock "Impossible. I can’t possibly love a guy"


Lysander immediately slapped his hands over his mouth immediately after saying those words.


"Huh?!" The Royal adviser on the other hand immediately looked up at Lysander in shock, believing he didn’t hear it right.


"Nothing" Lysander forced himself to keep his cool "It’s just. I’m actually asking for a friend. A friend I met when I went on a trip"


"Oh. Sure. Your Highness" The Royal Adviser nodded.


Lysander cleared his throat "So. As I was saying. I think it’s impossible for it to be love. I mean, it’s just some thoughts. And it’s not like I..."


He paused "I mean he. It’s not like he has had any romantic encounters with this person or anything"


"But he has feelings for this person" The Royal adviser said "Feelings that are growing to something that he can’t extinguish. Natural feelings of love"


Lysander paused. He sat there staring into thin air for a while.


He couldn’t deny it no matter how much he tried. He seemed to have fallen in love with Eden. A guy.


It wasn’t something he ever imagined for himself. He had thought about his love life.


He had imagined himself finding the right lady he’d love. Get married to her and give birth. Living a normal and happy life.


It was all he imagined and all he believed was normal.


Never in his wildest dreams did he imagine he’d actually fall in love with his fellow gender. It never occurred to him that it was possible.


And Lysander sat there, speechless, staring into thin air. He let realization hit him harder than he could sink them all in.


The Royal Adviser stared at him "Is there any worries that Your Highness bears. Feel free to ask me, I can try helping"


He added "And you can rest assured. Our conversation is strictly confidential. As I step out of this chamber, I’ll forget everything said here"


He rather reminded Lysander. That as Royal advisors, they don’t disclose conversations with the Royalties to anyone.


They’d rather take it to their grave. It was their rules.


Lysander stared at him "But... It’s a guy..."


He cleared his throat "I mean it’s a guy that my friend likes. I already told him that it’s wrong. It’s not something acceptable. It’s not something..." His words drifted away.


The Royal adviser hesitated "Yes. You’re right Your Highness. It’s something society frowns upon. Something that is wrong and unacceptable amongst all. Something.... that the ear shouldn’t hear.."


He said. His words stabbing Lysander with every letter in it.


They were words for Lysander. And Lysander could tell. And the reality the words had made him realise he was pretty much doomed.


"But..." The Royal adviser said. Now with a soft smile.


"These are still natural feelings of love. No matter if it’s a boy or a girl. They are still genuine feelings towards another party that still counts as love*


"Feelings of genuine love that shouldn’t be anyone’s problem" He smiled.